Putting Me To The Test

Last weekend was one of the hardest training weekends that I have experienced since I began training for Ironman.  Saturday was a 15 mile run; Sunday 4+hrs bike ride in the mountains…..

This is how it start.  I set out Saturday morning, not particularly early to run a new-to-me trail on Lookout Mountain.  Well, the instructions I got from a friend first sent me off in the wrong direction. I asked someone on the trail who told me I needed to go out the other end of the parking lot.  I then ran back to the parking lot and started in the right direction…Great- I’m on the trail now- I thought to my self.  Which I was…only problem I was doing more  boulder hoping and crossing of talus slopes than I was running for the first mile……at which point I turned around and headed back to the parking lot.   I figured I had no idea if the trail would ever become runnable, and since it wasn’t the best trail no one was on it, and I do keep the idea of possible mountain lions in the back of my mind.

I made it back to the parking lot and decided I would head to Bear Creek Lake to get my 15 miles in.  So into the car and down the mountain to the Conoco Station at Morrison.  “Great- I’m here and ready to get my run in!”  I start out on my run and within the first mile I end up eating most of the food I had brought w/me.  I had eaten breakfast almost 3 hours ago and had packed sparingly for today’s run….I decided no nutrition was not an option so I headed back to Conoco- grabbed some goodies…and this time set out on my run for real!!!!  (It’s about 3.5 hours after I left my house by now!)

I get going on my run.  I’m feeling good, it’s the middle of the day by now and in the 90’s.  I finally start to get a groove going.  I decided to run a loop around the Lake a few times….so I’m just finishing up the loop and look at my Garmin and I’ve been out almost an hour and have run only 2.94 miles!  “Man I suck today!!!!! What a lame a$$ runner!”, I’m thinking to myself.  A few more minutes pass, I look at my Garmin watch again and realized the GPS is not working as it’s permanently stuck on 2.94 miles….”OK so I’m not such a lame a$$ runner…but this watch SUCKS!  How am I going to know my mileage????  X%$#&^*! “.

I decide that I should do this loop at least twice and starting from the Conoco parking lot should make this close to 14 miles…then I wonder should I count the other 4 I’ve already run earlier or should I do 15 straight.  Then I start to have this thought that I don’t even want to do the run.  I feel like cr@&, I’m kinda pissed off, I’m definitely frustrated, and it’s hotter than hell!  I get back to the point were I would start the second loop and opt to continue!  Remember Cozumel baby, is what I’m thinking….So on I go for a second loop…….

I finish the second loop, after stopping twice and putting my head under water spigots, and head back to the car.  Thank goodness this epic day is DONE!!!!    I figured I ran somewhere between 12-14 miles…add in the other 3-4 miles and I think I came close to 15 miles today….grrrrrrr.  This 15 miler turned into a 6 hour ordeal!  Not exactly what I had planned for today……grrrrr. 

Then comes Sunday.  I wake up exhausted.  My usual biking buddies are either doing the MS 150 or some hellasious steep a$$ mountain ride.  I find myself totally unmotivated and NOT wanting to ride at all.  A get a txt from a friend of mine from California (thanks Howie) who says all the right things that get me out the door….barely. 

My friend Elizabeth and I are suppose to meet up later today after not visiting for over two months, so I give her a call and tell her that I will ride to her house after my ride.  I tell her how I’m feeling and about my plans…and ask if I can check in w/her along the way….(motivation backup!)

So my plan was- to ride from my house to Lookout Mountain-head up and over and back up Lookout- down the back side and then make my way over to her house in Denver West…..

I rode from my house over Dinosaur Ridge and to the bottom of Lookout. It took me an hour!  OMG it’s never taken that long…plus I’m still feeling like cr@#.  I am soooo wanting to bail and head to Elizabeth’s house, but I call her instead and say I’m going to head up Lookout and see how I feel….I can always turn around if I feel like cr@# (my word for the day!), and I if I make it to the top I may ride over the other side……..So- off I went, slowly.  My legs were mush, my breathing was labored and just about everybody and their grandmother (make that great-grandmother) were passing me.  This was a granny gear kinda day…

I made it to the top of Lookout, (w/out stopping), looked at my watch and saw my time was not off that much from what it usually would be- Man was I surprised by that as this felt the hardest it ever had today!  I call Elizabeth- tell her I made it to the top and am going to head down the other side and if I am feeling ok (I was never expecting to feel good today-just ok) I would ride back up the back side….And off I went again.

Well I made it down and finally started to feel ok after a few hours into riding, not great by any means, but at least ok….and decided to head to the top again.  I got back to the top after fueling up at the bottom and called Elizabeth and told her I would be headed her way soon.  She told me she figured I would ride back up and good on me for sticking w/it.  I wasn’t so sure I agreed with that- I still was feeling like cr@#!

I made it to Elizabeth’s house where she feed and watered me. We chatted on her back porch and I opted for the ride back to my house.  She had to go to Whole Foods by my house and I was just DONE for the day!  I did not want to get back on my bike for nothing…..This was another training day I was soooo very glad to have OVER!!!  Actually I was glad to have this whole weekend OVER!  I was actually looking forward to going back to work so I could “rest”, meaning my training would be lighter. 

And that’s how I was Put To The Test this weekend.  I wanted to give up both days, I felt like cr@# both days, I didn’t want to train both days….and I had never been more glad a weekend was over in my training career.  But I stuck it out, did the workouts anyway, and know that I have this time to look back on when I’m in the middle of my Ironman and hurting.  I can remember I made it through this weekend and survived, just by staying w/it and going the distance!


5 Responses to “Putting Me To The Test”

  1. Bine Says:

    Way to go Doreen! It sounds like a rough weekend… sorry. I am so glad to have you by my side through this ordeal because I have felt this way before too and thought, “Why am I doing this to myself… Can I really do an Ironman??” It’s about pushing through- and you DID! You rock sweet momma!

  2. Christy Says:

    Hey Doreen, Tuff training weekend, eeek, sorry bout that! Hey, I am reading a good book. I thought it was a training book and picked it up b/c Lance Armstrong wrote a forward. Name is “Breakthrough Triathlon Training” by Brad Kearns. It’s been good mentally for physical training even though I HATE stupid self-help exercise books. Think most of them are nothing but jibber-jabber by some self-declared guru :) This one is okay in some parts, though.

    I bet today is a brighter day already for you, though. Hey, the weather here is awesome today, isn’t it?

  3. Doreen Says:

    Thanks for the idea of the book. I’ll check it out!
    And Bine, thank goodness we’re in this together!!!
    Now if I could just get my bike straightened out!!!

  4. Shelly P Says:

    WOW Doe!!! Okay, so motivation..hmm, sometimes hard to find….but you did it!! I am motivated by YOU!! Just remember, somedays are going to suck, period! But some days are going to be amazing…and the combo of both are what make you the athlete and person you are today!! Love you…HUGS!!!! U rock!

  5. Doreen Says:

    Shell- I have been trying to find you! I am in McCloud….email me or leave me your phone # through the “contact me” page!!

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